I have ,in recent times, come to witness a metamorphosis far grater than can be endorsed in nature. It is one of dire deliberations and dismal sacrifice.  A Change that time and nature attest to as the single greatest miracle in a man’s cycle. A come back! A return to normalcy!  It is a beauty that cannot be described or portrayed simply because it is one outside the realms of nature as we know it.

A few months ago my pastor and I , with the help of the saints started a group for the addicts , specific to alcoholics.  This was a result of my previous exposure to a church outside my natural confinements. I met and fellowshipped with a bunch of Ex Cons, wife beaters, home wreckers, and the like. They all reminisced on  a lot of their  dark days . One thing was for sure!  It was impossible to reconcile who they are and who they said they were in a past long gone. I couldn’t imagine it….  However intrigued and charged I was about it!

I come back to my confinement and my pastor requests me to help out with starting an AA meeting.  Long story short, We finally got it going.
I can honestly tell you, the times I have been within those walls, I have learnt more about men thrown out by society because of who they had become, and their struggles to get back on track than I could ever learn in year of Church services.

This is the journey of a Miracle long prayed for. Prayed for by a loving mother, a devoted wife, a desperate husband, a hopeful son, … someone that has a loved one under the power of addiction.

Within the confines of these walls, I have come to respect what was known and sometimes still is known as the “scum of the earth”… The bum!  The struggle to become more than they think they are… the challenge of dispelling a lie that they are worthless… Believing that they are of more value than the dirt they  lie in….

It intrigues me … this journey. It mesmerizes me.  A bunch of guys that have come to an all time low and have hit their breaking point. This is It. This is where it begins to happen. The Miracle of all time! The transformation from scum to king!  They look to the big book for answers….

First they admit they are powerless over the addiction.  That They are beyond redemption and cant do it on their own.  This is acceptance. This is coming straight out of a denial. One that had blinded them from seeing the truth about their despair and pain !

Secondly, They hand over their addiction to a Power Greater than themselves.
Yes, that is to say, They must negate all pride that tells them otherwise and believe in a God that can set them free from their addiction.  One that can restore them to sanity!

Thirdly, they make a decision, to turn their will and their lives over to the care of God as they understood him.  This has to and always will introduce the aspect of Hope. See ,for an addict, the pain they caused, the despair they feel, the control they lack, it all is a literal hell! Their world is crumbling before they. Spiraling into unmitigated chaos and they are helpless and hopeless!

It is at the third step of the Twelve, that the man realizes he isn’t alone. That this isn’t it. He isn’t doomed for a “bottled trap”.  That His Life can still be brought to Sanity.
It hit me! I couldn’t leave the group. I couldn’t have helped it start  for these men alone.  I found, in the depths of my heart, that I needed to see this. For my own sanity! For my own addictions of life! My vices that keep chipping my life away!

I have for sooo long pointed a figure at how “they are the ones with the problem” and how they should ” just change” Or “just leave the habit”…

Only to realize I am one. I am a problem too!
To witness these men pick up their lives’ pieces and watching them put them back together … is truly the single greatest metamorphosis of all time….

I have come to know about it all to well, but never thought it was mine to have.  I never thought I needed it.

I thought I was still in control….

I thought I had it all together,

But to know it isn’t true is the beginning of perfect freedom…

Hi, I am me, and I am an addict